Becoming independent (from your mum or parents is a huge step)
I found that out a few days ago.
I always thought im super independant you know?!
Living in my own apartment (well my mum moved in 2 years ago but whatever,
I do pay rent,
I do pay groceries,
I pay "Hundesteuer" and its (mostly)
my furniture)
and working full time as a manager, leading a huge team in a huge company everyday. I thought I must be so independant, so mature.
I mean having such a high position, giving people advice and assigments that are more than 20 years older than I am...
but all that doesnt seem to be everything,because apparently,
I am not
I found that out a few days ago.
My mum and I were crossing the street and she was only one step behind me when a motorcycle hit her.
She got injured real bad and gets surgery on thursday.
She will get better,I know that but she wont be ble to walk for the next weeks.If she will ever walk again completely.They donno yet.
But what scares me most is that she wont be home for 3 month.
Honestly she is everything i have,everything.
I dont have anyone else to talk to and to do stuff with.noone who cooks with me,sleeps in the same apartment,watches tv with me, goes grocery shopping or on holidays,picks me up fom work,
noone i can surprise,i can make happy,can give presents to or share important things with.
im on my own.and I dont think i can handle it.
I stayed at my friends house for 3 nights but
Tonight is the first night at home after everything and tomorrow will be my first day at work after this.
I am scared.
Really scared.
anyways i cant write on i am tired and i just wanna grab my dog and dnuggle in to fall asleep.
Good night blog world.
Good night real world,
I am happy I am alive and even happier my mum is.
God is there for her,for us.
Thank you for that.
Tomorrow will be a new day and she will be better. I am so thankful for that.
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